So...what do you do when you aren't sure if someone is friend or foe?

When everything inside of you is screaming that you can trust/talk to someone, but watch your back because that person has alterior motives.

I have one friend who...well, I like talking to this person. I enjoy spending time with them. But all I'm interested in is a friendship. He says that's all he wants. But there are times I'm not really sure if he's trying to help lay ground work for me to be with someone else or if he's trying to just very slowly lay his own.

I do kindof trust him. But then I keep getting the feeling that there's more going on that he isn't telling me.

Trust or don't trust? friend or foe?

There are things going on where there are times I feel paranoid. and times I feel like there is no such thingas too careful.

When you feel that theres people after you....how do you know who is friend and who is foe.  Especially when you get confusing vibes from them.

I don't mind admitting that I enjoy the relative anonymity that CovenSpace offers. That I possibly wouldn't be posting this if not for said relative anonymity. But lets face it, sometimes we all need to vent and well, there comes a time you get tired of bitching about the same thing over and over again to you friends.

There are times that I'm not sure what to do. That I feel like I'm going crazy. 

I know who I am, what I can do. But for the bulk of my life I've been told everything was my imagination. Now it's hard for me to not wonder if I'm just overreacting or just plain jumping to conclusion--or if it is indeed just my imagination.

It started simple enough.

I had Pagan friends and I was happy. I had people I could talk to and hang with and who did not tell me that I was crazy.

Then, well, there was a mild falling out. I won't go into my suspicions for it because there is no evidence to back it up and well, I'd like to not be sued should this be discovered.

Now I'm openly snubbed by people I believed were my friends.

At times I even think I feel them trying to...well, let's just say pry.

I've even been sent a few metaphysical warnings. All because I wouldn't "go with the crowd".

They say they aren't snubbing me, but I know they are.

Whatever, right? I don't know. Part of me wonders if maybe I'm creating drama where there isn't any. Or if there is another party trying to play both sides against the middle.

I don't know. I just sortof felt like rambling a little bit. So...here it is.